What is the cause of the fear that rises up in you? Usually, it’s not something from the Spirit of God. If we are living in fear, are we really trusting in the Lord? When fear or disappointment arises, we need to recognize that God doesn’t bring about everything that happens, but He will use it for the good of those who love Him. When we know that something good will come out of what may seem like the worst of circumstances, that’s when we know we have our eyes set on eternity.
In 2017, I found myself severely disappointed with my career. The previous two seasons, I had been sent up and down from the big leagues and minors multiple times. Finally, I had broken into the majors right out of spring training with the Tigers. I had my first opening day and I felt like I finally had the opportunity I had been waiting for. I knew that might be the last chance I would have to do what I wanted to do. A month and a half later, I found myself back in Triple-A.
I thought I had blown it. I couldn’t put words or an explanation to what had happened, though my performance explained it enough. Then I questioned myself, “Why am I feeling sorry for myself?” I was disappointed, but I realized I was not looking at my circumstances with Kingdom eyes. I thought of the Apostle Paul, who said he was content with little and content with a lot. He was focused on God in any and every situation, so what was keeping me from experiencing that kind of peace?
God ended up using that season in my life for so much good. I began to understand who I was as a pitcher, and who I was in the Kingdom of God. Baseball was suddenly just something I did, it no longer defined who I was. I know I am called to play baseball, and that understanding has led me to prepare and play the game in a drastically different way than I used to. I just needed to stay strong in my conviction of this and not waver in unbelief. This didn’t guarantee my success as a player, but it guaranteed my peace and trust in God.
Baseball can be taken away from me at any time, and I’m OK with that. With my baseball career, I know a lot of it is out of my control. At any moment, I could be done, and if that happens, I know God will call me to something else, just like He has called me to this game for this time. I don’t know what that will be when He does, but I know that it will be for my good and the good of the Kingdom.
— Matthew Boyd, Detroit Tigers pitcher
Matthew Boyd is a regular contributor to The Increase, providing monthly articles and opinions. Check out Matthew’s Increase profile here.
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