Looking at 2020, I’m excited, overwhelmed, and not sure what to expect, though I’m expecting a lot. I’m hoping and expecting God to do a lot in me and through me in the unknown of what’s to come this year.
Sometimes I feel like my prayers are like Groundhog’s Day. It’s as if I pray for change but the same habits and tendencies play out each day, over and over. The Lord is refining me, but He hasn’t yet perfected me. As I continually ask God to transform me, I can get discouraged when it hasn’t fully happened yet. I’m learning that though this is a hard season of correction, God is taking His time because that’s what you have to do when you want to perfect something — take time. I’m hopeful that as I continue on this journey with God, I get to learn more from Him and experience more of Him along the way.
What I’ve been continually asking God to work in me is Philippians 3:8 — to count everything as loss compared to knowing Christ. Proverbs 2:4 says to seek for wisdom “as for hidden treasure.” And yet I don’t feel like I’m seeking Him with the value He deserves. I want to grow my desire for Him. But I realized I’ve been putting a timeline on this process. God is not.
As I journey to the Olympics this year, I want to learn more about seeking God first. This year is going to be the pinnacle of my softball career. There aren’t many athletes who can pinpoint that time before it comes, but this has to be it. With this being the biggest year of softball I’ll experience, I want to value seeking Christ and knowing Him above all else — above winning a gold medal or any career opportunity that could come my way.
I guess it’s normal to find oneself caring more about this life; I often spend more time thinking about how to fix a problem in my swing than I do an issue in my walk with Christ. I don’t want to do that. That only lets doubt and insecurity sink in. Instead I want to look at everything through the lens of Christ and think about how my talents can bring Him glory.
I’m setting goals for my 2020 season, and one of those goals is to grow deeper in my relationships with other believers on my team. We have a core group of girls on the team who are really close spiritually; we’ve been a huge encouragement to each other, but I know there’s still more. We’re still young and there’s so much more we can learn and do together. I’m excited to grow closer to them as sisters. God is reminding me of how important it is to be flat-out vulnerable with those who love me on this journey of faith.
Going deeper. That’s what I want for this year, both with God and with those around me.
— Janie Reed, USA Softball player
Janie Reed is a regular contributor to The Increase, providing monthly articles and opinions. Check out Janie’s Increase profile here: https://theincrease.com/author/janie-reed/
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