It’s a very satisfying feeling for me to experience a sense of purpose within my day. Yet I wonder sometimes about my purpose and significance when unexpected circumstances distract me from seeing the sovereignty of God over me everyday. I’m sure I’m not alone in that. I was married for 30 years and have been single now for 10, following the death of my husband. My rhythm, routines, and resonance of life changed, then halted. There are times that I wonder, “Am I doing enough? Am I doing all that God wants me to?” Now life can feel rather unintegrated and random at times. I have a few different pockets of activities that don’t necessarily all fit together with the same sense of meaning and purpose as I had before becoming single. Yet in the midst of this season, in the midst of my questions and longings, I know God is at work.
He is teaching me to trust Him, to listen to Him, and to faithfully obey and follow Him as He weaves my story together.
Trusting Him: Even though I grew up in church and believe I was saved from a young age, I had a monumental turning point in my relationship with God when I was sitting in church one Sunday at the age of 22. I vividly remember the pastor saying that if I wanted to know God’s plan for my life, I needed to get to know Him. He was speaking straight to my heart. I whispered to the Lord, “Yes I want to know You.” That was a turning point in my life where God truly sealed me as His own and my relationship with Him became deeply personal.
Ever since then, I have seen God’s faithfulness and trustworthiness through all the seasons and days of my life. I know He is trustworthy, but that doesn’t mean I always clearly see what He is doing in my life, or where He is leading me, or how He is weaving all the parts of my story, routine, and life together. So I walk by faith and not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7), with my eyes fixed on the One who alone is faithful. In everything, my desire and aim is to get to know my Creator and put my hope and trust in Him.
Listening: Shortly after my “turning point” in church at 22, I joined a Precept Bible study and began to immerse myself in His Word. As a result, I began to grow and change. I developed a joy for discovering truths contained in God’s Word and an understanding of how knowing His Word could truly transform my life. I truly believe the Bible is 100% true and God’s very spoken Word to us. It’s the standard I seek to live by and measure everything up against.
We live in a relativistic culture that says it’s okay for everyone to define their own truth. However, as a Christ follower, I see God and His Word as the standard for reality and truth. Because I have access to the very mind and heart of God in His Word, I know that God speaks. Scripture foretold and fulfilled is evidence that tests and supports the veracity of the Bible. God has spoken and will continue to speak to me. Jesus said, “My sheep hear my voice; and I know them and they follow me,” – John 10:27.
Faithfully obeying and following: I listened at a seminar recently entitled “Life’s Second Half.” The pastor encouraged us to view our routine and ordinary days as a “holy adventure” and as a part of something God is doing and weaving together. This challenged my attitude as I realized how hard this is for me to do. I am a scheduler, planner, and rule-follower, and it’s difficult for me not to see and prepare for the big picture plan. Nevertheless, I desire to be faithful to “continue to walk worthy of the calling” He has placed on my life (Ephesians 4) with gentleness, long-suffering, loving others, and a cheerful spirit. In everything I do, I want to be a humble and helpful servant, spending my life glorifying and elevating God and Christ so that He is seen more in my life, and I am seen less.
I love God and I’m thankful He is teaching me through ordinary means to trust, listen, and faithfully obey. It is truly through the most ordinary me that the extraordinary works of the Spirit are seen if I believe.
“‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments,” -Matthew 22:3739.
Loving God and our neighbor is the most ordinary, yet eternally significant purpose this human being can embrace. This is enough purpose for me. I thank God for my labors within my pockets of time and activities leading me into deeper intimacy with my Heavenly Father and greater service to my neighbor. Keep me faithful to Thee in Thy mercy and grace. Amen
“We can do no great things. Only small things with great love.” – Mother Teresa